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| Jesse and Jen |
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Happy Birthday Jesse!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
"the most important thing I learned in my childhood from my mom was .... "
Since today is all about me (oh brother), i thought I'd share what they had to say.
JESSE: There are a lot of things you taught me. Well you taught me school from grade 2 - 6 so there must of been a lot of things taught in that span! But I think the top 3 would be how much God loves me. How much family means. And how to manage my money would be the third.
DALYCE: The most important thing I learned from my mom was to never stop being a dreamer. Go after the impossible, be wild and free. dream big... I remember saying funny/wild comments to my mom about things I wanted to be when I grew up or what I wanted to do. She'd buy us microscopes when we wanted to be scientists or doctors or put us in music lessons when we wanted to be famous. She'd start brainstorming for me/with me, with my dad about how to help me succeed in my dreams and desires. Nothing was too big for her to help me fight for or strive to get or become. In her eyes I could be anyone, do anything. So maybe what I really learned from her was to never give up, keep going. Dreams are just the starting point at finding or becoming who you were meant to be. My mom taught me how to believe, how to be strong, how to fight for the things you see that are good but mainly she taught me that being happy isn't cookie cutter, life isn't built up of formulas or certain steps that will bring you success and happiness, rather she taught me that life is hard but worth the fight of knowing you are leaving a mark on this world. That dreams are meant to inspire you to figuring out what you like and what you don't. That being different is ok. That we're all special and we'll all live life a little differently than the people around you, and that's ok.
ALYSSA: I think one of the main things I remember about my childhood was there was so much support and freedom. We were really allowed to chase whatever dream came to mind--
You were completely loving and tender and comforting-- but you let us fall, make mistakes, pick ourselves up, and keep going. You and dad were our biggest cheerleaders. You let us break arms, skin our knees and get dirty. I guess, when looking back, the feeling I have about my childhood was freedom with loving boundaries. You had this framework for us to live in // "fences" to keep us safe // but within that we were allowed to spread our wings and try and fail and try again.
I was never worried you weren't going to be there. You were always a constant. Like I said, I could try new things, step out of my child-like "comfort zone", and I KNEW that you would be there. I knew that you and Dad would be at every swim meet, every parent-teacher interview, every basketball game... I never had to think twice about that. Something I probably totally took for granted, but something that I know allowed me to flourish because of the SECURITY.
Thank you my dear children! I love you all so much!
Friday, September 9, 2011
I was in prison and you came to visit me
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Those Kowalsky's
A few of my craziest moments include the word “Kowalsky”. I have some wonderful, adventure seeking, outdoor loving, adrenaline rush cousins that inspire me, challenge me and either make me want to do things I’ve never done before or give me the encouragement and support to do the thing I’ve always wanted to do but never quite had the guts to make happen. The first time I climbed a mountain (a scramble, not a “ropes and carabiner” climb) was with Glenn and Laura K. When I jumped out of an airplane, it was with the blessing and encouragement of Mark K. This weekend was another of those moments.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Let me ask you a question ...
- Answers are usually easier than we want to think. It's the questions that tear a person apart. Deborah Smith, Stone Flower Garden
- I think everyone has "the answer' they need from God, But I don't think everybody has the same questions. Lisa Samson, Straight Up
- When things are good we have no questions and when things are bad we have no answers. Unknown
- We hear only those questions for which we are in a position to find answers. Friedrich Nietzsche
- Judge a man by his questions rather than than his answers. Voltaire
- There is frequently more to be learned from the unexpected questions of a child than the discourse of men. John Locke
- You don't want a million answers as much as you want a few forever questions. Richard Bach
- If there are no stupid questions, then what kind of questions do stupid people ask? Do they get smart just in time to ask questions? Scott Adams
- We thought that we had the answers, it was the questions we had wrong. Bono
- It is better to know some of the questions than all of the answers. James Thurber
- I don't pretend we have all the answers. But the questions are certainly worth thinking about. Arthur C. Clarke
- Christians, like slaves and soldiers, ask no questions. Jerry Falwell
- When we get to heaven, I don't think we'll have all the answers but I think we'll finally know the right questions. Me!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Happy Birthday Dalyce!
anne June arrived on the first day of summer in Yellowknife, NWT. Summer Solstice was always a celebrated day in the north and Dalyce's arrival just made it more so.Monday, June 13, 2011
and so it begins ...
My given name is Cynthia Hope. If you google the meaning of the name Cynthia, you’ll usually get something about “goddess of the moon” or something like that. I also found one definition that said “bringer of light”. I like that … I like to think that I bring light into people’s lives or at least that I try to. The name Hope doesn’t need much explanation. I love what it means and I’m happy to have it as my middle name. My husband (his name is Barry Norman Alexander Joseph) likes the word hope and how it’s meaning changes when you have faith. If I use the word ‘hope’ to say something like “I hope it’s sunny tomorrow,” what I’m really saying is “I have no assurance or guarantee but I’m wishing it would be sunny tomorrow.” As a Christian, if I say “My hope is in the Lord” that is assurance with a guarantee. Okay, enough preaching.
I grew up on the Great Hope Ranch and was named after the ranch. Now maybe being named after a piece of property wouldn’t thrill you, but I loved that place, loved being a farm kid (felt sorry for city kids), loved living in a coulee, loved having horses and pigs and chickens and cows (but hated the work that went along with them), loved the creek, loved the crocuses on the hill in the spring, loved knowing my directions because of the north gate, the west gate and the east gate (just had to figure out south), loved the barn (the tuck room, the Indian motorcycle stored behind the manger, the hay loft with the empty pigeon coop), loved the garage (used to be the old house with school desks upstairs and other treasures in nooks and crannies), loved the old school house, loved the storage buildings and the discarded treasures they held, loved the shop (with the big bellows and forge furnace). I could go on and on (and I just did) … I loved where I grew up so being named after it was an honour and a thrill.
So I love my name, right? Well, yes and no. I love my middle name. I don’t like being called Cynthia (too snooty) and don’t really like Cyndi either (sounds like a cheerleader from the 60’s). Cindy was a very popular name for poodles at one time, too. I don’t want to be called Cynthia, I’m not crazy about Cyndi/Cindy, I don’t want to change my name so I guess I’m hooped.
Now comes the real question … to tattoo or not to tattoo? Yes, my children, I am seriously considering this question. A friend of mine (whose middle name also happens to be Hope) had Fierce Hope tattooed on her forearm. Her first name means “fierce” … I love it. That’s what got me thinking about the meaning of my name.
Goddess of the moon Hope doesn’t have the same ring. My last name means “hamster” in Polish but Hamster Hope lacks the class I was kind of going for when/if I get a tattoo. Then I stumbled across “bringer of light” and I thought I could go for Light and Hope. I like the image of both of those words. I’m not completely committed to the idea of a tattoo but I think I know what I’ll get IF and WHEN I decide to go for it.
I wanted my blog to be Light and Hope but that’s already taken. Moonlight and Hope is a bit more ethereal, a bit more mystical, a bit more mysterious … and a bit more available.
So stick with me if you want, ignore me if that’s the way you lean. I don’t know how often I’ll blog (hopefully more than once … lighthope.blogspot.com blogged once in 2003 and never again … lightandhope.blogspot.com blogged once in 2006 and never again), I don’t know what I’ll blog about. There may be pictures once in a while, hopefully something to make you think, make you smile, make you cry (or at least make you feel) – but hopefully not all at once.
Peace! (because this really feels like a hippy dippy start to blogging)


